Day 52: live

Live. Live Life.

It is heartbreaking to see people you love in pain while there is nothing you can do. It pains me to watch other people i love in pain as they watch the people they love in pain. It is a crazy vicious cycle of thorns being passed on to each other.

Like the story that I heard on the radio. A wasp got into a mom’s pant, and while she was in pain, she pleaded her son to help her. He also received pain while he was trying to help her.

Is our lives not sometimes like that as well? While we help others, we run the risk of hurting ourselves as well! So perhaps we have to be better prepared before helping others. Or, we can choose to not help but get someone who is more skilled to help. Or we may help apply the cream to the bites. – regardless, we can be a part of the story.

Been enjoying a song recently that has been on replay 🙂 I’ll also post the lyrics:

Peter Han – Back in Time
English Version
Netflix: Stranger
aka: Secret Forest
Little me once said
With you I will go to the ends
Of this whole wide world
I thought we’d endure
 
 
Our love was strong and pure
Why didn’t we make sure
To put time on hold 
So we could unfold
Have I told you lately 
I’ve been 
Thinking ’bout a time
When you and I were fine
All these thoughts in me
Led us to a place where we
Had nowhere left to hide
Let’s go back in time
When you were mine
Everything we had was magic
Why did we choose instead 
A place of regret
Have I told you lately 
I’ve been 
Thinking ’bout a time
When you and I were fine
All these thoughts in me
Led us to a place where we
Had nowhere left to hide
Let’s go back in time
When you were mine
Everything we had was magic
Why did we choose instead 
A place of regret
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Day 47: reassurance

reassurance = the action of removing someone’s doubts or fears – google

today was one of those days where I feel unsure even when I was correct and in the rights.

somebody was trying to use me to push someone off the cliff – figuratively-ish. However, I was like “NO!” – indirectly.

I felt uncomfortable being placed in that position but as I shared my story today with a good buddy, they gave me reassurance that I needed.
“you did what was right – dont betray your integrity and consciousness for something like that”

my praise-prayer got deleted / never got posted however, I would like to repeat it.
Thank God for giving me opportunity to experience the different type of people. For allowing me to mature and to seek for help when I needed. Thank you for being patient with me and showing me mercy; I am so undeserving of your love yet you still place different people in my life – to show me the reassurance that I needed and that I am not to forget the Christ-like lessons I have been taught. So I thank you and I pray that I can continue to live a life where I am wise in all I do, say, and think.

seems quite appropriate to place Michael Jackson’s classic hit song: Man in the Mirror

Changes start with one; changes starts with me. every emotion I feel in different situation depends on how I see it and how I respond. 

You know that saying..or you may not know: tears are like car wipers, after you cry for whatever had happened to you, you can finally see clearer.

carriehohoho OUT.

Day 40: Breathe.

 

Lee Hi – Breathe

Lyrics:

Breathe in deeply
Until both sides of your chest
Get numb
Exhale more
Until they start to hurt a little
Until you feel like
There’s nothing left inside of you

It’s okay if your breath gets short
No one is blaming you
You can make mistakes from time to time
Everyone else does too
If I tell you “it’s alright”
I know that they’re only words
When someone sighs
How can I understand
Such deep breaths
Your sigh
Even though I won’t be able to understand its depth, that’s okay
I will embrace you

It’s okay if your breath gets short
No one is blaming you
You can make mistakes from time to time
Everyone else does too
If I tell you “it’s alright”
I know that they’re only words
When someone sighs
How can I understand
Such deep breath
Your sigh
Even though I won’t be able to understand its depth, that’s okay
I will embrace you

Even though your sigh may seem cheerless to others
I know that
Your day was so difficult that it was hard for you to let out even a small sigh
Don’t think about anything else
Breathe in deeply and exhale just as you are
When someone sighs
How can I understand
Such deep breaths
Your sigh
Even though I won’t be able to understand its depth, that’s okay
I will embrace you
Thank you so much for your hard work

Lyrics Credit: kpopviral.com

Long time no type. My life have been good so far but there are still days where I feel so tired. This new song from Lee Hi just really touched my heart.

I am loving the lyrics even though they are so so so simple…

I would love to high-light and bold everything…if i really had to pinpoint one section, it would be this:
Your day was so difficult that it was hard for you to let out even a small sigh
Don’t think about anything else
Breathe in deeply and exhale just as you are

When i am feeling down from work or feeling so distant from who I want to be, having someone to tell me to just keep breathing just as I am is very comforting…what am I even saying? I use to have a saying that helped me push through the day. that was: just breathe. When the day gets so hard that even breathing hurts…getting a reminder/encouragement to breathe..helps me. I can’t say for others..but for me, it helps. I need a psychologist to look through my blog lol. Or perhaps I need to simply turn to God. 🙂

Anyways, thank you Lee Hi for this song. Thank you High Ground for bringing Lee Hi out of the YG dungeon…who knew how long she would have take to release anything. KUMM SAA AH MEE DAAA!

Day 31: Tori – Kelly : All in My Head

“All In My Head”

[Verse 1]
I see you with her and it crushes me inside
Guess I should stop thinking about you all the time
Maybe this is what I needed maybe this is a sign
Maybe I’ve been blind to reality baby tell me

[Chorus]
Every little glance my way
Every time you wanted to hang
You seemed so interested
Could you tell me was it real or was it all in my head
Was it real or was it all in my head

[Verse 2]
She’s so pretty you two look so great
Time for me to move on now it was probably just a silly crush anyway
But I just cant help but think that we, we could’ve had something
Have I really been blind to reality baby tell me

[Chorus]
Every little glance my way
Every time you wanted to hang
You seemed so interested
Could you tell me was it real or was it all in my head
Was it real or was it all in my head

[Bridge]
Was it real or was it fake?
Was it all a mistake?
Boy, I just gotta know was it all in my head, all in my head?
Did you ever feel the same?
Was my mind just playing games?
Boy, I just gotta know was it all in my head, all in my head?

[Chorus]
Every little glance my way
Every time you wanted to hang
You seemed so interested
Could you tell me was it real or was it all in my head in my head
Was it real or was it all in my head

Day 25: AKMU

AKMU – Melted
Haven’t written in such a long time. School life. Church Life. Family Life.
Lately, things have been a little rough with mom and I. It’s hard to deal with it sometimes. I have to see her as my boss. I have to see her as a mother. I also see her as one of my closest friend. So all these combine together is a little straining to be honest. It gets more tough when she goes through hormonal phases as she’s hitting menopause which often affects her mood. So…this makes me constantly confused of which “mom” I am suppose to approach. Therefore, when I am incapable of reading the situation and I treat her as a friend while she’s in boss mode, I make mistake…and irritation occurs. Different “mom” comes with different Carrie. It isn’t better when I have exams lately and I’m losing my will to study. All I can do is leave it up to God. right..? right.
This song is pretty mellow and really suits the mood I’m in. Sometimes when I”m feeling a little down, listening to jolly songs does not help while having a song that just matches the mood does. hm.
For an English final I’m taking, we had to read by Nick Hornby, “About a Body”. A few quotes that I think really forces me to rethink about my perspective is:
1) pg. 274-275: “he realized that Ellie spent her whole time wanting life to be shit, and then making life shit by making things difficult for herself”. It then goes on to page 275: “If either of them had real trouble in their lives, they wouldn’t want or need to invent it for themselves”. So many times, we create the feelings we have ourselves and take all the wonderful present for granted. It’s almost as if we’re punishing ourself for being so blessed. hm. just thought of the day.


AKMU – Melted

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face turns black

The white sky that had clouds and rain and the wind turns gray
I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face
I look at the past warmth that is deeply buried (too late get it out)
I wish the cold in the world of adults would be gone too
I wish the frozen love will melt away now

I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

Romanized:

Bulgeun haega sesuhadeon paran bada geomge muldeulgo
Gureum bibaram ogadeon hayan haneul hoesaek bitteulgo
Mamsoge chajaon eodumeul geudaero dugo
Bameul deopeun chagaun geurimjamanyang gudeoganda

Eoreumdeuri nogajimyeon
Jogeum deo ttatteutan noraega naoltende
Eoreumdeureun wae geureoke chagaulkka
Chagaulkkayo

Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

Bulgeun haega sesuhadeon paran bada
Geu gipi muchin yet ongireul barabonda
Too late get it out
Eoreundeul sesang chuwido pullyeosseumyeon hae
Eoreotdeon sarangi ijen juwiro heulleosseumyeon hae

Mamsoge chajaon eodumeul geudaero dugo
Bameul deopeun chagaun geurimjamanyang gudeoganda

Eoreumdeuri nogajimyeon
Jogeum deo ttatteutan noraega naoltende
Eoreumdeureun wae geureoke chagaulkka
Chagaulkkayo

Eoreumdeuri nogajimyeon
Jogeum deo ttatteutan noraega naoltende
Eoreumdeureun wae geureoke chagaulkka
Chagaulkkayo

Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

Translation Credits: pop!gasa
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With all this being said, these two talented little munchkins! They are siblings; the brother is the composers of all their songs. They are what Korean might considered as not pretty but I’m glad they are doing so well to prove that not only Barbie’s can be successful! They are also season 2 winner of KPOP Stars and joined YG FAMILY! wooot! yep!

Work Cited
Hornby, Nick. About a Boy. New York: Penguin Group. 1998. Print

^hmm. I hope I did the work cite correct. I’m still working on MLA format.

That is it from me for now! Pop by after finals~
-misshohoho

Day 24: Smile

HI YA! ya. so writing consistently is quite a difficult task to do. I’ll try to update more frequently..not that anyone comes on my site. I have decided to get baptized! I am super nervous and excited at the same time. Just completed my draft for my testimony last night with lots of help from my cousin and counsellors. I think I’ll post it up after my pastor edit it a bit just so it can be semi-well written 😀

A song that I played while writing my testimony was….
Lord, I Need You by Matt Maher
I was so stuck on what to write and after continuously replaying this song, I just focus on all the times I needed him. I have already invited a lot of my friends who are non believer in hopes that perhaps my story can touch them? I can only leave it to God to touch their hearts. I hope you can realize how your life is in need of Christ 🙂

Lyrics:

Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You’re the One that guides my heart

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I’ll fall on You
Jesus, You’re my hope and stay

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

You’re my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Credits: http://www.lyricshall.com