Day 40: Breathe.

 

Lee Hi – Breathe

Lyrics:

Breathe in deeply
Until both sides of your chest
Get numb
Exhale more
Until they start to hurt a little
Until you feel like
There’s nothing left inside of you

It’s okay if your breath gets short
No one is blaming you
You can make mistakes from time to time
Everyone else does too
If I tell you “it’s alright”
I know that they’re only words
When someone sighs
How can I understand
Such deep breaths
Your sigh
Even though I won’t be able to understand its depth, that’s okay
I will embrace you

It’s okay if your breath gets short
No one is blaming you
You can make mistakes from time to time
Everyone else does too
If I tell you “it’s alright”
I know that they’re only words
When someone sighs
How can I understand
Such deep breath
Your sigh
Even though I won’t be able to understand its depth, that’s okay
I will embrace you

Even though your sigh may seem cheerless to others
I know that
Your day was so difficult that it was hard for you to let out even a small sigh
Don’t think about anything else
Breathe in deeply and exhale just as you are
When someone sighs
How can I understand
Such deep breaths
Your sigh
Even though I won’t be able to understand its depth, that’s okay
I will embrace you
Thank you so much for your hard work

Lyrics Credit: kpopviral.com

Long time no type. My life have been good so far but there are still days where I feel so tired. This new song from Lee Hi just really touched my heart.

I am loving the lyrics even though they are so so so simple…

I would love to high-light and bold everything…if i really had to pinpoint one section, it would be this:
Your day was so difficult that it was hard for you to let out even a small sigh
Don’t think about anything else
Breathe in deeply and exhale just as you are

When i am feeling down from work or feeling so distant from who I want to be, having someone to tell me to just keep breathing just as I am is very comforting…what am I even saying? I use to have a saying that helped me push through the day. that was: just breathe. When the day gets so hard that even breathing hurts…getting a reminder/encouragement to breathe..helps me. I can’t say for others..but for me, it helps. I need a psychologist to look through my blog lol. Or perhaps I need to simply turn to God. 🙂

Anyways, thank you Lee Hi for this song. Thank you High Ground for bringing Lee Hi out of the YG dungeon…who knew how long she would have take to release anything. KUMM SAA AH MEE DAAA!

Day 25: AKMU

AKMU – Melted
Haven’t written in such a long time. School life. Church Life. Family Life.
Lately, things have been a little rough with mom and I. It’s hard to deal with it sometimes. I have to see her as my boss. I have to see her as a mother. I also see her as one of my closest friend. So all these combine together is a little straining to be honest. It gets more tough when she goes through hormonal phases as she’s hitting menopause which often affects her mood. So…this makes me constantly confused of which “mom” I am suppose to approach. Therefore, when I am incapable of reading the situation and I treat her as a friend while she’s in boss mode, I make mistake…and irritation occurs. Different “mom” comes with different Carrie. It isn’t better when I have exams lately and I’m losing my will to study. All I can do is leave it up to God. right..? right.
This song is pretty mellow and really suits the mood I’m in. Sometimes when I”m feeling a little down, listening to jolly songs does not help while having a song that just matches the mood does. hm.
For an English final I’m taking, we had to read by Nick Hornby, “About a Body”. A few quotes that I think really forces me to rethink about my perspective is:
1) pg. 274-275: “he realized that Ellie spent her whole time wanting life to be shit, and then making life shit by making things difficult for herself”. It then goes on to page 275: “If either of them had real trouble in their lives, they wouldn’t want or need to invent it for themselves”. So many times, we create the feelings we have ourselves and take all the wonderful present for granted. It’s almost as if we’re punishing ourself for being so blessed. hm. just thought of the day.


AKMU – Melted

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face turns black

The white sky that had clouds and rain and the wind turns gray
I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

The blue ocean that the red sun used to wash its face
I look at the past warmth that is deeply buried (too late get it out)
I wish the cold in the world of adults would be gone too
I wish the frozen love will melt away now

I leave the darkness that finds my heart
Even the cold shadow that covers the night starts to harden

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?

If the ice melts, a warmer song would have come out
But why is the ice so cold? Why is it so cold?
Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

Romanized:

Bulgeun haega sesuhadeon paran bada geomge muldeulgo
Gureum bibaram ogadeon hayan haneul hoesaek bitteulgo
Mamsoge chajaon eodumeul geudaero dugo
Bameul deopeun chagaun geurimjamanyang gudeoganda

Eoreumdeuri nogajimyeon
Jogeum deo ttatteutan noraega naoltende
Eoreumdeureun wae geureoke chagaulkka
Chagaulkkayo

Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

Bulgeun haega sesuhadeon paran bada
Geu gipi muchin yet ongireul barabonda
Too late get it out
Eoreundeul sesang chuwido pullyeosseumyeon hae
Eoreotdeon sarangi ijen juwiro heulleosseumyeon hae

Mamsoge chajaon eodumeul geudaero dugo
Bameul deopeun chagaun geurimjamanyang gudeoganda

Eoreumdeuri nogajimyeon
Jogeum deo ttatteutan noraega naoltende
Eoreumdeureun wae geureoke chagaulkka
Chagaulkkayo

Eoreumdeuri nogajimyeon
Jogeum deo ttatteutan noraega naoltende
Eoreumdeureun wae geureoke chagaulkka
Chagaulkkayo

Why are they so cold
Why are they so cold

Translation Credits: pop!gasa
Romanizations by: kpoplyrics.netRead more:http://www.kpoplyrics.net/akmu-melted-lyrics-english-romanized.html#ixzz3XjHlspM0
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With all this being said, these two talented little munchkins! They are siblings; the brother is the composers of all their songs. They are what Korean might considered as not pretty but I’m glad they are doing so well to prove that not only Barbie’s can be successful! They are also season 2 winner of KPOP Stars and joined YG FAMILY! wooot! yep!

Work Cited
Hornby, Nick. About a Boy. New York: Penguin Group. 1998. Print

^hmm. I hope I did the work cite correct. I’m still working on MLA format.

That is it from me for now! Pop by after finals~
-misshohoho

Day 20: Get Back UP!

Well…after the Japan trip, I have been quite a lazy butt.
I stopped doing devotion and have just been adjusting to jet lag and my sore body. After a good of study and more later on, I feel like I should at least write something to continue my goal of writing of at least 100 day of something! hahaha

So after going to fellowship, I have been wanting to get back on track. There are times where I might need to take a peeing break from this stop so like my wonderful cousin say: pace it Carrie.

Yesterday in fellowship, the topic was on LENT.

Giving up on something. Sacrifice.

A Living Sacrifice

12 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.

The word that spoke most to me was “pleasing”.
I have been living my whole life pleasing others and myself. Most of the time, it is to please mother. The other is to please the people who I want to love me or to care about me. This verse is telling me to please God. I think this is especially close to home because ever since going back to Christ’s path, that has been my ultimate goal. To do all things that would please him. Each addiction I have, I fight it in hopes that it would please Him.

For Lent, it is about being a living sacrifice. To be honest, I don’t know how strong my faith is to be so loudly proclaiming that I am willing to sacrifice my life for Him. I want to…but I am a sinful person with greed. However, to follow this in a less literal sense, it can be interpreted as giving up my human desires; giving up my addiction. Giving it up while focusing on improving myself to the path of God.

I admit, I watch a lot of Korean Drama. It is close to the point where it is taking over my life. It sounds a wee bit extreme but it is very close to the truth. I think working on this addiction during Lent will be very beneficial to myself. I don’t have much faith in myself that I can truly eliminate it but I will work on it. Day 4 at the current moment. However, this would be good in the sense that every time the desire to watch it shows up, I am aware and I am not making a reckless decision. In other words, I choose whether it is a(n): appropriate time to watch it? appropriate show? drama that could in some sort of way help me be a better me?

Just to clarify, there are such korean drama that I believe truly made me more aware and understand the world a little bit more. The recent ones that I watch were: It’s Okay, That’s Love and Pinocchio were both really shows that had really good moral cores within it.

Okay, to end off this blog. MUSIC:

This song is by Amber from her first solo album: Beautiful. Of course, beside from the fun mv and tempo of “Shake That Brass”, I have chosen Beautiful. I think this song must have been one of the most important song to Amber. I feel this song is quite vulnerable and it really touched me. I wish her all the best and I hope she continues being the silly llama she is!

Lyrics:

I hung my head low, avoiding the sky, hiding
The nights were endless in my dark heart, yeah yeah
I couldn’t spread my wings in this world that was like a small birdcage
With struggling movements, I’ll sing for you, who will come to me some day

So my dreams that spread its wings can shine even more in the blue sky
So my coldly shut heart can beat again, I’ll go up in the sky to the stars

Outside the door, I always had anxious scars
I can only fly if I endured through the pain

Those hurtful words deeply cut into my heart
It hurt but I bit my tongue and endured
I know I’m gonna heal and I’m always looking up
Even if it’s dark, I’m gonna find the light
I will smile, I will keep smiling
I’m a fighter, I won’t ever give up
I’ll keep flying, fly, fly again
My dreams wrap around the future me
I’ma just be me yeah only me
I’ma just be me yeah yeah

I can fly higher without fear, even when I’m trapped in darkness
Any kind of scar is beautiful to me
I’m just happy, I’m happy to be myself
I’m happy to be myself

Romanized:

Gogael sugin chae haneureul pihae sumji
Eoduun maeum sok bameun
Haneobtji yeah yeah
Nalgaereul pyeol su eobseosseo
Jobeun saejang gatatdeon sesang ape
Himgyeoun momjiseuro
Eonjenga chaja ol neol noraehae

Nalgaereul pyeolchin nae kkumi
Pureun haneure hayeomeobsi deo bitnage
Chagapge dachin nae mami dasi ttwidorok
Haneul nopi jeo byeoreul ttaraseo

Mun bakkeun eonjena buranhan sangcheoman namgo
Apeumeul gyeondyeoya nal suga isseo

Nalgaereul pyeolchin nae kkumi
Pureun haneure hayeomeobsi deo bitnage
Chagapge dachin nae mami dasi ttwidorok
Haneul nopi jeo byeoreul ttaraseo

Geu nalkaroun maldeuri
Nae mameul gipi beeo
Apeugin hajiman i angmulgo chamgo gyeondyeo
I know i’m gonna heal
And i’m always looking up
Nun api kamkamhaedo bicheul chajeul geoya
Naneun useul geoya gyesok useul geoya
I’m a fighter jeoldae pogihaji anha
Nan gyesokhaeseo nara fly tto nara
Nae kkumeun meon hut narui nae moseubeul doegama
I’ma just be me yeah only me
I’ma just be me yeah yeah

Duryeoum eobsi deo nopi nal suga isseo
Eodum soge gatyeodo
Geu eotteon sangcheomajeodo naegen areumdawo
I’m just happy
I’m happy to be myself
I’m happy to be myself

Translation Credits: pop!gasa
Romanizations by: kpoplyrics.net

Credits: http://www.kpoplyrics.net

Day 16: Korean Dream

So recently I have been watching:

No.Mercy
They recently added a new rapper in the middle of the survival show…poor guy. He had to really endure all the uncomfortable moments as the newbie BUT, my one of my bias seems to be pretty OKAY with him so yep!

Screen Shot 2015-02-04 at 14.20.21 Seems pretty cute ^^
#gun and I.M. 🙂 Nice to see at least some friendly people. Did I mention #GUN is Song Mino’s cousin? Well yes he is. So I guess the Song family aint too shabby 😛 😛

The next thing I’m watching is:

Hyde, Jekyll, Me
love Hyun Bin and Ji Min~~

On episode 5 pausing on this scene
Screen Shot 2015-02-04 at 18.02.02

This sexy beast straight outta the marines.

That is it for now reporting for vancouver. Peace out, hey town.

-misscarriehohoho

Day 15: To Do List

Not exactly sure what to write right now so thought of a to do list!

– pack
– clean room
– catch up on bio + math + eng !
– read: “the book thief”

Song of the Moment:
This is from a korean pop idol survival show called mix&match
B.I’s team did a collab with Lee HI (runner up of Kpop star season 1)
Love love lee ha yi! As much as I love bommie, I hope lee hi doesn’t strain her voice too much ><”’
This is their cover of let it go. I really enjoy it~

Day 7: Thankful Hearts

Semi-productive day. Could have gotten more work done today but o well, incidents happen. 1030pm, have to wake up early for a full day of classes.

Read an article today on allkpop about Amber from F(x) on Real Men, a korean variety show.She initially gave off the vibe of strength but because of the language barrier, she messed up several times. Amber who is known for her happy self broke down. It saddens me but it is the truth. When a confident person is constantly being ripped due to being in an area that is not their expertise, it can eventually be a heavy weight. I screenshot this sad moment. I hope she stays strong and don’t get disheartened.

Screen Shot 2015-01-26 at 22.32.01

Sometimes we reach bad days but eventually, it will be something of the past.

Look what I got:

Photo on 2015-01-26 at 22.43

Papaya! Yum!

Okay, Good night world!

-misscarriehohoho

Day 5: Rest Day

Breaks are needed. I feel overwhelm at times and out of control. Today is break day. Devotion, then sleep.
Going to post two videos up both by Lunafly. I love this group. They don’t have the huge hype in korea in comparison to BigBang or Super Junior but they are such a precious group. They have GREAT voices and they are singers. Not simply as an “idol” but they are together to really sing! Plus, eye-candy…so extra bonus ^^ Okay, enough talks.

This is a Cover of Super Hero:

This is their original that I LOVE LOVE LOVE! 🙂 enjoy!
Fly to Love: