Day 23: Women Missionaries

There was a talk today in church about women missionaries. Although the speaker cover mostly on the history, it really sparked my interest in this topic…

Perhaps later on after becoming a nurse…

outz.
misscarriehohoho

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Day 22: Concentration Level

Should I be like Osmosis? Defy the norm. Go from low solute concentration to high solute concentration? Defy the odds?
Been study biology all the day. Prayed for concentration and in comparison to the other days, today have been quite a productive day.

Of course, with the occasional video watching and eating.
Watched Running Man episode 21, my spartace moments ❤

I feel like watching some of the older episodes allow hindsights. Seeing how everyone is still getting use to each other and building trust and friendship is what makes Running Man so precious to many viewers. To see Lee Kwang Soo as a variety newbie and comparing him to now? To see the few shy side of Spartar, Kim Jong Kook! Must not forget Song Jong Ki. I miss him 😦 I wish he can come back for a few (or remain) in Running Man. The Song sibling moments *tear tear* Just the few precious members that I can’t help always looking at when watching Running Man. Every time I watch Running Man, the desire to be fit and athletic creeps onto me…after midterm! I promise! Thursday! eeeks.

This leads to the more serious talk…hindsight and foreshadowing. Had a small talk with my G. Been having a few negative thoughts last night before going to bed. After asking a friend whether she wanted to go to another old friend’s birthday, she persistently replied: no. Her reason was because she feels awkward and has not been keeping touch with that friend. This got me thinking. When the day come when she has to go back to where she came from and we lose contact, would this become US? In addition to my school life, work life, christian life, and personal life, there are times where we don’t see each other for long period of time. She has been a good friend of my for over 5 years…almost 9 years? wow.

“Friendships are kept when both side take the effort” – G+C.
Reality hit and gone are the days where we just hang out in the mall and walking in endless circles. I want to eventually do missionary work or at least go away to foreign countries as a medical worker. I want to go far far away to help those who lack the access to help. When that day comes, I would definitely have even less moments of these long term friendship. I never want to lose it. Bittersweet.

If you call being ‘blessed’, having material things… then you don’t know what a blessing is.
Song Gunhee (#GUN/ShotGun) Starship-X Ent. [No.Mercy] trainee.cr:naver/navercast (via joo-gun)

I guess the best I can do is to cherish the moments I have with my friends.

A note from sermon that really touched my heart: God found me. I didn’t search for him but He found me. His love for me is so grand that all I can do is hope all I do is pleasing to Him.

Song: A Thousand Years – Christine Perri
Feels like a conversation between Him and I.

Lyrics: “A Thousand Years”

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Day 21: Clean Up

Journal:
1)wake up 2)pick up g+h–> church time 3)drive home 4) cook lunch for myself+sunny pasta plus lots of left over veggie and meat. 5) clean clean clean! clean room, sweep all the floors, dishes 6) sit. manga. whatsapp. music –> hungry. 7) grocery shopping, got a little walk in there. 8) cook! chicken, bok choy, rice+lap cherng. I think I am a chef 😛 keke

My song on repeat at the current minute is FourFiveSecond – Sir Paul McCartney, Rihanna, and Kanye. Love the music and the way the sounds and the voices go so well together. Lyrics in my personal opinion isn’t the best but it is good. Good in the sense that the message it wants to send has been sent. But yes, this is a song on repeat at the moment. hahaa

Lyrics:

[Verse 1: Rihanna]
I think I’ve had enough, I might get a little drunk
I say what’s on my mind, I might do a little time
Cause all of my kindness, is taken for weakness

[Hook: Rihanna]
Now I’m Four Five Seconds from wildin’
And we got three more days ’til Friday
I’m just tryna make it back home by Monday, mornin’
I swear I wish somebody would tell me
Ooh thats all I want

[Kanye West]
Woke up an optimist, sun was shining I’m positive
Then I heard you was talkin’ trash
Hold me back I’m bout’ to spaz

[Hook]
Now I’m Four Five Seconds from wildin’
And we got three more days ’til Friday
I’m just tryna make it back home by Monday, mornin’
I swear I wish somebody would tell me
Ooh thats all I want

[Bridge]
And I know that you’re up tonight
Thinkin’ how could I be so selfish
But you called bout a thousand times wondering where I been
Now I know that your up tonight
Thinkin’ how could I be so reckless
But I just can’t apologize, I hope you can understand

[Kanye West]
If I go to jail tonight, promise you’ll pay my bail
See they want to buy my pride, but that just ain’t up for sale
See all of my kindness, is taken for weakness

[Hook]
Now I’m Four Five Seconds from wildin’
And we got three more days ’til Friday
I’m just tryna make it back home by Monday, mornin’
I swear I wish somebody would tell me
Ooh thats all I want

Now I’m Four Five Seconds from wildin’
And we got three more days ’til Friday
I’m just tryna make it back home by Monday, mornin’
I swear I wish somebody would tell me
Ooh thats all I want

Source: http://www.directlyrics.com/rihanna-fourfiveseconds-lyrics.html

Day 20: Get Back UP!

Well…after the Japan trip, I have been quite a lazy butt.
I stopped doing devotion and have just been adjusting to jet lag and my sore body. After a good of study and more later on, I feel like I should at least write something to continue my goal of writing of at least 100 day of something! hahaha

So after going to fellowship, I have been wanting to get back on track. There are times where I might need to take a peeing break from this stop so like my wonderful cousin say: pace it Carrie.

Yesterday in fellowship, the topic was on LENT.

Giving up on something. Sacrifice.

A Living Sacrifice

12 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.

The word that spoke most to me was “pleasing”.
I have been living my whole life pleasing others and myself. Most of the time, it is to please mother. The other is to please the people who I want to love me or to care about me. This verse is telling me to please God. I think this is especially close to home because ever since going back to Christ’s path, that has been my ultimate goal. To do all things that would please him. Each addiction I have, I fight it in hopes that it would please Him.

For Lent, it is about being a living sacrifice. To be honest, I don’t know how strong my faith is to be so loudly proclaiming that I am willing to sacrifice my life for Him. I want to…but I am a sinful person with greed. However, to follow this in a less literal sense, it can be interpreted as giving up my human desires; giving up my addiction. Giving it up while focusing on improving myself to the path of God.

I admit, I watch a lot of Korean Drama. It is close to the point where it is taking over my life. It sounds a wee bit extreme but it is very close to the truth. I think working on this addiction during Lent will be very beneficial to myself. I don’t have much faith in myself that I can truly eliminate it but I will work on it. Day 4 at the current moment. However, this would be good in the sense that every time the desire to watch it shows up, I am aware and I am not making a reckless decision. In other words, I choose whether it is a(n): appropriate time to watch it? appropriate show? drama that could in some sort of way help me be a better me?

Just to clarify, there are such korean drama that I believe truly made me more aware and understand the world a little bit more. The recent ones that I watch were: It’s Okay, That’s Love and Pinocchio were both really shows that had really good moral cores within it.

Okay, to end off this blog. MUSIC:

This song is by Amber from her first solo album: Beautiful. Of course, beside from the fun mv and tempo of “Shake That Brass”, I have chosen Beautiful. I think this song must have been one of the most important song to Amber. I feel this song is quite vulnerable and it really touched me. I wish her all the best and I hope she continues being the silly llama she is!

Lyrics:

I hung my head low, avoiding the sky, hiding
The nights were endless in my dark heart, yeah yeah
I couldn’t spread my wings in this world that was like a small birdcage
With struggling movements, I’ll sing for you, who will come to me some day

So my dreams that spread its wings can shine even more in the blue sky
So my coldly shut heart can beat again, I’ll go up in the sky to the stars

Outside the door, I always had anxious scars
I can only fly if I endured through the pain

Those hurtful words deeply cut into my heart
It hurt but I bit my tongue and endured
I know I’m gonna heal and I’m always looking up
Even if it’s dark, I’m gonna find the light
I will smile, I will keep smiling
I’m a fighter, I won’t ever give up
I’ll keep flying, fly, fly again
My dreams wrap around the future me
I’ma just be me yeah only me
I’ma just be me yeah yeah

I can fly higher without fear, even when I’m trapped in darkness
Any kind of scar is beautiful to me
I’m just happy, I’m happy to be myself
I’m happy to be myself

Romanized:

Gogael sugin chae haneureul pihae sumji
Eoduun maeum sok bameun
Haneobtji yeah yeah
Nalgaereul pyeol su eobseosseo
Jobeun saejang gatatdeon sesang ape
Himgyeoun momjiseuro
Eonjenga chaja ol neol noraehae

Nalgaereul pyeolchin nae kkumi
Pureun haneure hayeomeobsi deo bitnage
Chagapge dachin nae mami dasi ttwidorok
Haneul nopi jeo byeoreul ttaraseo

Mun bakkeun eonjena buranhan sangcheoman namgo
Apeumeul gyeondyeoya nal suga isseo

Nalgaereul pyeolchin nae kkumi
Pureun haneure hayeomeobsi deo bitnage
Chagapge dachin nae mami dasi ttwidorok
Haneul nopi jeo byeoreul ttaraseo

Geu nalkaroun maldeuri
Nae mameul gipi beeo
Apeugin hajiman i angmulgo chamgo gyeondyeo
I know i’m gonna heal
And i’m always looking up
Nun api kamkamhaedo bicheul chajeul geoya
Naneun useul geoya gyesok useul geoya
I’m a fighter jeoldae pogihaji anha
Nan gyesokhaeseo nara fly tto nara
Nae kkumeun meon hut narui nae moseubeul doegama
I’ma just be me yeah only me
I’ma just be me yeah yeah

Duryeoum eobsi deo nopi nal suga isseo
Eodum soge gatyeodo
Geu eotteon sangcheomajeodo naegen areumdawo
I’m just happy
I’m happy to be myself
I’m happy to be myself

Translation Credits: pop!gasa
Romanizations by: kpoplyrics.net

Credits: http://www.kpoplyrics.net

Day 19: Osaka

Hotel was not as bad as I had imagine but it was definitely a different class in comparison to Citadine. I’m okay but mother is not as okay about it. Changed two different room but still not fully satisfied as we have to change room on the last day. However five days here. We could make it!

Today was a tiring day. I think jet lag is still hitting us and many times throughout the day, it was pretty tense.

I only pray that tomorrow would be better when we get better rest tonight.

B: western breakfast. egg, sausage, toast, hot chocolate and coffee.
L/D: @osaka Mix Okonomiyaki (pork, squid, shrimp) recommended by a pair of (Chinese?) British travellers.
Late night snack: (?)

Watching the You Who Came From The Stars (again) with mom.

-misscarriehohoho

Day 18: Time With Me

So I missed a day or two of this blog business. I am in JAPAN! Woot! Plane ride was exhausting to say the least. I hope I get a better flight when going home. I do miss my bed. #1.

We got lost endlessly yesterday when we landed. So a brief summary.
1. landed. Immigration Security. Very efficient.
2. Narita Express. With a foreign passport, for one way only from Narita Airport to Shinjuku (or wherever ex. Tokyo Station), 1500 yen. Regular Price, 3000 yen.
3. Go downstair to take the reserved train. Hunt for your seat. Lock your suitcase. Ride was around 1.5 hours to Shinjuku. Not too long.
4. Got to Shinjuku. Now here was the messy part. We went in circles, in and out of Shinjuku, went to the JR station several times. Our goal was Shin Gyoemmae Station. However, that is not part of the JR Line. Therefore, the hunt for the local metro subway was on.
5. Hunt for Marunouchi Line. By this time, we had asked at least 6 people how to get to Gyoemmae Station.
a) station conductor
b) JR Pass person
c) pedestrian buying ticket
d) women waiting for her friend (she was the one who told us we were looking for Marunouchi Line).
e) another station conductor who pointed us to the direction but…we are pretty directional disabled obviously.
f) a young man who looked like mid 20’s who was OH SO VERY KIND. He walked us all the way to Marunouchi Line AND taught us how to buy our tickets. So so so thankful for him!
It is really quite a sight to see all these kind and helpful people who would use their data and their time to help us. So thankful and really made me reflect about myself.
6) So, after finally on the Marunouchi Line heading to M10 (Shinjuku is M8) and paying 170 yen for two stations, we arrived at Shin-Gyoemmae Station. To get to our hotel, Citadine Hotel, we were told to leave at exit 2.
We asked for instruction from the station conductor who had told us perfectly well instructions. We followed the first one and none of the rest.
7) After walking for 3 mins out of the required 6 min, we started to doubt and started to ask for help.
After barging into a restaurant and the owner plus two young men’s help, we started to head back to the station (ie. wrong way).
8) While walking the wrong way, we went into a family mart and asked for direction again. From the manager who gave us the correct instruction just like the station conductor, we started to head the correct way again.
9) However, when we walked for around 5 out of the 6 required minute, again, doubt started to arise and we started to hunt for the hotel in our own method. We strayed away from the required path and after 2 more citizen who did not understand us, we finally got another young couple help. With the help of their data and my flashlight app, we manage to find out that we were 1 minute away from the hotel. YAY!
10) Finally at Citadine Hotel. Check-in, unpack, FOOD. We were slightly in starvation mode. Had food. Yum.
11) Back to hotel, shower, knocked out. Jet lag hit a few times at 4AM, 5AM, 7AM. Then got up!

Today, Feb 9 2015.
Itinerary: Mt. Fuji, Shop at Shibuya et Shinjuku
Food:
B:Bakery Goods + Coffee
L: Yaki-Udon, Hotone Special Udon
SushI from sushi belt. 2200Yen ish.
Shopping: 2 pairs of shoes. Good sale!  A toque, a dinosaur onesie, some kit-kat goods

Feelings:
There was many department store where the entire building was mighty expensive. Smoking room in restaurant. Crossing the road at shibuya. A sea of people. Cannot wait for Osaka to EAT EAT EAT. Managed a conversation with our last shopping store near the hotel. Nice lady. I actually understood 80% of the Japanese content. The rest was situation-based and hand motion. It was truly exhausting. At the end, my head was unable to formulate any sense though so I had to reply in simple English. A nice experience definitely. Need to rest, I was wearing a pair of flats that I was planning to trash which was not a so good of an idea as my ankle is now so sore…

OSAKA TOMORROW! Pray for cooperation between mother and I. In addition, we find our hotel as soon as possible.

Photo on 2015-02-09 at 22.18 #2

Sweet dreams! Reporting from Tokyo, Japan.

-misscarriehohoho