Day 12: Panic Attack

I think I nearly had a panic attack yesterday.
It was in a crowded place that I wanted out however, this is not my first time being in a crowded place. I do not know how this suddenly happened.
Confused.
Seeing a doctor seems so excessive. I’ll see…

Song Of The Day
Tyler Shaw – 1993 baby from British Columbia!
I don’t think he has any new songs lately which is understandable. Maybe he has school to attend to but yea, you can imagine how happy the west coast was when Tyler was doing so well in mainstream. Hope he is doing well.

Sing-A-Longs:

“Kiss Goodnight”

I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever

Lying here in silence
So in love but so afraid
I’m not gonna deny it
I have never felt this way
Time is slipping away
And we both know that I can’t stay
And time, is not on our side
So let’s make the most of our last night

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever
Cause I know in the morning you’ll be gone
How am I supposed to carry on
I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever

We’re not gonna surrender
Let’s stay awake till the sun comes up
Just one night have to remember
Save your tears, cause you know it rains this time of the year
It’s time, so let’s do this right
Cause we ain’t got all night
It’s time to hold you tight
Cause we’re only minutes from goodbye

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever
Cause I know in the morning you’ll be gone
How am I supposed to carry on
I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever

Now the night is over
We both know what it means
Lying here, watching the sun come up
It’s like waking from a dream and yeah!

I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever

[Chorus]
I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever
Cause I know in the morning you’ll be gone
How am I supposed to carry on
I don’t wanna kiss good night
I just wanna stay here forever
I don’t wanna close my eyes
I just wanna stay here forever.

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Day 11: Stay On Track

I admit that I am someone who gets easily distracted.
I hear crows caw-ing outside my window and I immediately want to go out and look at them.
I have bad concentration level.
I admit it.

Which is another reason why I am up right now. If I had spent enough time on my English assignment, I would not have needed to wake up and could have been sleeping in…aiya.
My body is too old for an all nighter.

Okay, stay on track!
Post a song of the day later tonight maybe.

-misscarriehohoho

Day 10: Dine Out Vancouver

Dine out Vancouver. Where expensive restaurants have a set menu at a lower value.
Went to Hurricane Grill at Yaletown. yum yum. Great portioning and food was pretty well seasoned and well cooked. Environment seems good as well but the setting was pretty big so our waitress was running back and fourth and it was difficult to grab her attention at times. Food service was a wee bit slow but we were a party of 5 so that might have played a part to it.

Food: 8.5/10
The strawberry at my creme brûlée was old and broken. Presentation or an edible part of the dessert…not really acceptable. Two out of the four strawberry were broken so it wasn’t just my dessert. The top caramelized layer for the brûlée was too thick making the dessert much too sweet.
Service: 7.5/10
Our server was great, but everyone outside of the service was not exactly professional. Example, lots of chit chatting to one another while serving us. As well, as I mentioned, difficult to grab our servers attention.
Overall: 8/10
I would come back again but maybe on a night that is a little quieter…?

That’s it for now~

-misscarriehohoho

Day 9: Ramen

Instant Noodle. Especially in Asian Cultures, instant noodle plays an extreme part in the culture.
My favourite include:

Japanese brand: Nissin or as Cantonese people call: chut cheen yut ding
I grew up only eating the seafood and beef flavour. While growing up, I was living with my lovely wu sisters and there was a total of six mouth to feed. So when we wanted instant noodle, we would usually cook around 8 instant noodle per feeding. That would be quite pricy so we usually just buy instant noodle in bulk size. However, now that I’m living with just my mom and step-dad, we don’t buy instant noodle as much which allows me to pick different flavour. Out of all the flavours given, this flavour, black sesame seed is my favourite. Mainly because the flavour is really strong and of course, the sesame oil aroma is quite distinct as well.

ramen

My second favourite instant noodle is:

ramyun

Korean Brand, Nongshim; Shin Ramyun

Every SINGLE Korean drama would have at least one session of instant noodle slurp. (unless it’s a historical drama). So eventually, every time they have one of these, my urge to cook one of these increases. I’m sure I am not the only one sucked into this so I would proudly say, I love my ramyun. However, here in Vancouver, these little guys are pretty expensive…the best price I could get is 6$ for five and only when they are on sale…so I have to eat them wisely…
I really do enjoy the extra texture and I am attempting to increase my hot food tolerance one ramen at a time. The black pepper is great and it also has sulong tang soup flavour too! Yum! I just had one for dinner today..^^”’ hehehe

Shin Ramyun takes a little longer to cook because the noodle is thicker therefore portion is bigger than chutcheenyutding. And like I said, a little more expensive as well…but korean drama just keeps tempting me with ramyun ~.~

Okay! Enough talks, time to do homework!

– misscarriehohoho

Day 8: Take The Plank Out Of Your Own Eye

It is scary to see others full of greed. They want more and more at whatever cost. It hurts to see it when they are the people you love. It is almost as the person you thought you knew never even existed. It is so terrifying that it almost becomes comical.

It is even more scarier when you realize that you are no different from them. That you have greed in yourself too. In me, I am greedy. I try to stop myself but at times, I can’t help it. It is an on going process that I am working on. There is just that constant reminder that: If I’m judging someone else, someone else is also making a judgement on me. How would that make me feel. A passage from the Bible also helps me:

Matthew 7:1-5 NIV

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.”

To not judge others forces you to understand others. Or at least, attempt to understand others. Therefore, when I see other people being greedy, maybe I should understand why they were greedy in the first place. Only when you know one’s full story can you make an opinion on it.

Song of the day

Laura Story – Blessing.
This song really helped me grow spiritually.

During one of my lows in my growth in Christianity, I was so angry at God. I was unhappy about my situation. I was confused why He placed me at my job and why I was stuck at one spot. I felt suffocated and again, angry. I was so frustrated with Him that I gave up on Him. I fell into a spiral of bad habits and bad addictions. Not drug addiction or anything biologically harmful but it definitely affected my characteristics. I became a stranger to Him and most of all, to myself. I was becoming someone who I would dislike, who I would judge. My cousin shared this song with me. In her own annoying way, it did get to me eventually. Not brainwashed but more like, “fine, I’ll see what you have to say” kind of attitude toward it. I was raised as a Christian so I definitely believe in God. I was just angry. This song helped me see things in a slightly different view. At that moment, it didn’t change me entirely about my view of God, but I was able to connect to this song and I slowly turned around from my ways. Slowly. My walk with God is still a gradual process. Step by Step; Day by Day; Moment by Moment.

^ the above seems like a pretty good start for my testimony…hm..
ANYWAYS, Song is Below:

“Blessings”

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things’Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not our home
It’s not our home

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

-misscarriehohoho

Day 7: Thankful Hearts

Semi-productive day. Could have gotten more work done today but o well, incidents happen. 1030pm, have to wake up early for a full day of classes.

Read an article today on allkpop about Amber from F(x) on Real Men, a korean variety show.She initially gave off the vibe of strength but because of the language barrier, she messed up several times. Amber who is known for her happy self broke down. It saddens me but it is the truth. When a confident person is constantly being ripped due to being in an area that is not their expertise, it can eventually be a heavy weight. I screenshot this sad moment. I hope she stays strong and don’t get disheartened.

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Sometimes we reach bad days but eventually, it will be something of the past.

Look what I got:

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Papaya! Yum!

Okay, Good night world!

-misscarriehohoho